One Too Many

To begin, I would like to state that I am not a big fan of paper towels. But, my husband greatly enjoys having them right at hand. He really likes the pick a size brand, so that is what I most often buy. This kind of paper towel system makes sense to me, because it is less wasteful. Except for the fact, that when I grab a paper towel, most often, five come rolling down and I have then torn them all off before I can roll it back to just grab one.

Now, I have one too many paper towels.

As this happened to me this morning, I was thinking about how this happens in my life on a weekly basis. I try so hard to be intent on choosing those things that matter most to God, but I so often find myself wishing for more time in my day. One too many.

Is it something valuable? Yes, but not possibly the most valuable use of my time. When I find myself wishing for more time, I am painfully aware of the fact that I am not doing what is on God's agenda. I did not stop to align my day with God's purpose for me. I have run ahead of Him and filled my day, then prayed that He will help me accomplish all the tasks at hand. One too many.

"The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps." Proverbs 16:9 O dear child, you should be praying first to see how you can be of help to Me, for My kingdom. Here, in this moment of truth, I am deeply humbled and at a loss for words. For this child knows (all too well) that His grace and mercy are boundless and ready at hand, even in my foolishness. At my first act of surrender He will awaken in me a new song and put before me a path that honors His call for me that day.

Father, forgive me for the times I run ahead of you and do not stop to first see how you intend to use me this day for Your kingdom. I know the times of my foolishness are one too many.

"Whether then you eat or drink or whatever you do, do all for the glory of God." 1 Corinthians 10:31